There should be words, but nothing will come out. It's not rational, and she KNOWS it's not rational, but that doesn't make the fear and the remembered hurt go away.
There have been people who loved her before, and in the end it didn't make any damn difference. She always gets left behind, left alone.
People thought she'd gotten over her mother's death when she was nine, that she'd coped remarkably well. The truth...was more complicated. Bury the pain deep enough, put on a strong face long enough, and you can even make yourself believe that you're unbreakable, untouchable.
She's never allowed anyone to see her cry, to see her emotionally weak, since that day. Not when her father died, when her mentor committed suicide, not in any of life's tragedies since. She's NOT going to cry now, damn it all!
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There have been people who loved her before, and in the end it didn't make any damn difference. She always gets left behind, left alone.
People thought she'd gotten over her mother's death when she was nine, that she'd coped remarkably well. The truth...was more complicated. Bury the pain deep enough, put on a strong face long enough, and you can even make yourself believe that you're unbreakable, untouchable.
She's never allowed anyone to see her cry, to see her emotionally weak, since that day. Not when her father died, when her mentor committed suicide, not in any of life's tragedies since. She's NOT going to cry now, damn it all!